But enough about Derby,
I kinda love my life at the moment. And yes, this is something we should all do, all the time… but it’s not always easy. Well it’s been super easy for me lately. Every time I stop and think, “My life couldn’t be anymore boss right now,” aside from having an aside to myself, “Stop saying ‘boss’ all the time,” my life gets all uppity,
“You think this is the best you can do? You think you’re peaking? Well guess what! You’re not!”
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| What if we made it FOUR forks? |
then things get even better.
It’s a little horrible in one way as I know people who are going through some real life bad times, evictions, illness, craziness, legal stuff…. Whoa! Life just got real for some people. People I love and care about, but damn, I can’t do a damn thing to help them. It makes me feel like I should celebrate my successes quietly, as I don’t want to be all, “Hey! I just got the lease on this awesome place I really wanted and… oh. You’re still being evicted. And all I’m doing is moving my lazy arse out of home, not like I don’t have options.”
But anyway. Part of my enjoyment at the moment is from the level of contrast. Here I am, thinking of a highly professional and responsible way to email my tenants and explain to them that due to increases in my insurance and rates that I’m putting their rent up (Sidebar: not true, I’m moving out and just want more money to subsidise my own rent as I’m paying my upper limit). Nek minute, I’m giggling in excitement as this evening we are dressing up in furry animal onesies and going to an outdoor movie screening.
Dealing with my tenants. Getting excited about animal onesies. I love it, it makes me want to laugh and fills me with happy
And why shouldn't it? I've always been conscious in my life that the decisions I make effect me - not a steller realisation but I see a lot of people who seem to not understand this very basic concept. If I decide to shove my hand in a fire, I'm going to own my burns because that's what I wanted. I own all my decisions despite their outcome being positive or negative because they're what I chose. I have found the simple act of owning yourself supports making positive, forward moving decisions. If you blame external forces, it's easy to stagnate. If you're only looking to yourself for answers, you better be moving forward or want to be standing still. I haven't been able to slow down for a beat since I took 100% responsibility for my life.
And why shouldn't it? I've always been conscious in my life that the decisions I make effect me - not a steller realisation but I see a lot of people who seem to not understand this very basic concept. If I decide to shove my hand in a fire, I'm going to own my burns because that's what I wanted. I own all my decisions despite their outcome being positive or negative because they're what I chose. I have found the simple act of owning yourself supports making positive, forward moving decisions. If you blame external forces, it's easy to stagnate. If you're only looking to yourself for answers, you better be moving forward or want to be standing still. I haven't been able to slow down for a beat since I took 100% responsibility for my life.
