I am so annoyed with everything at work at the moment. I could use twice the number of people in my team and some more structure. Instead, we're being snowed under and left for dead. I took this role because it's easier to shine in a disaster zone rather than when nothing's wrong, but this week has been the worst. I just need hugs and support right now. I renewed my licence (six months over due) and got a hair cut (six weeks over due) trying to get back to my happy place by being responsible. It probably wouldn't be half so depressing if everything else in my life wasn't kicking so much ass in comparison.
Challenge update:
What's the challenge with Aikido?
I've been going for 18 months now and coming up to my third (yonkyu) grading. I love the structure and tradition of martial arts, but it's a life long road and sometimes maintaining a high level of enthusiasm is difficult depending on what is going on in your life. I returned to achieve my dan grade as I left karate just before then (I really felt too young and irresponsible for it back in the day, and I sure didn't want to get roped into teaching the kids class). Part of it is the skill level, but for me the rank holds so much more now. I want that responsibility, I want to demonstrate that maturity and dedication that is indicative of the title. But I still have two or three years minimum to go - it is a lot of time and work and since Derby fell in my lap it's like having to water the house plants when someone's just given you a puppy. All I kinda want to do is play with the puppy but it's poor form to let the house plants die.
Segue back to Day Eight
Fitness: Rest day from the gym, primarily due to time constraints.
Aikido: Can only attend the Beginners class on Thursdays. Little bit sad as we had been doing Fundamentals which I found I was getting more out of. But! I think it's good because Sensei uses me to teach, demo and guide the beginners. He can hear and see me teaching some of the more basic movements. He approved of the direction I took today, and it will be a contributing factor to my progression through the ranks. So not the personal skill training I would have preferred, but still a definite move forward.
Derby: Finally! Wheels down. Sunday feels like it was a million years ago. And who would you believe.... Kami! again, ohmygoshohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh. Trying to be restrained but it was hard not to do a little dance. Mostly limited by the fact that I only have a set number of moves I can do on skates. We did all sorts of awesome fun stuff and I think someone may have broken my nose. But talk about 'not knowing what you don't know'. Like jumping while skating backwards. It was so great to do that and then have Kami roll up with a big grin on her face, "I've never done that before, just seemed like it would be something cool to do." I loved seeing someone like her beaming over a new trick. To be at that level and to still be like a cat who got the milk after doing something new and different. Awesome.
Diet: With work as depressing as it currently is, eating well during the day gets harder because frankly, sitting at my desk and drinking tea and eating biscuits is very relaxing and non-demanding. I set my mind like a stone though, and ate breakfast (weetbix, banana) mammoth sandwich, a few cups of tea and a timtam snuck in there, primarily due to me being ultimately work bummed and it wasn't so much because I wanted a chocolate biscuit, just because I wanted to try and do something nice for myself. Honestly, I didn't even enjoy it as much as I had hoped. Amazingly though, after coming home from training I stopped off at the supermarket and bought two bags of vegetables and managed to cook up a wee tasty feast of chicken breast and greenery. I was so darn proud of myself. High five! But seriously, most people know how much it sucks cooking for one (feeding the cat a slither of chicken doesn't count) let alone having to stop for meal ingredients before coming home after three hours of training to cook.
Sleep: It's gonna be a close one tonight! I slept poorly last night, I didn't wake up but I felt unrested when I woke in the morning. I have a concern this room is actually too hot for conducive sleep which may be why previously my sleep has been so rubbish here (aside from the 2/3am bedtimes and 7am starts) I'm going to open the interior windows (it's a mezzanine) and see if that helps, otherwise I'll need to track down a fan or similar.
But yea. I had almost forgotten how much work sucked today because getting to train again with Kamikaze Kitten was just awesome-balls with a side of amaze-sauce. I had been concerned about not pushing my limits enough with Derby but with this sort of training I can't help but give everything to every drill. Like I mentioned... jump... going ... backwards? If you'd said that to me earlier today I would have laughed, "No way, I'm ages away from that." but apparently not. Sadly though, both her and the Rose City Girls (Mel and Scratcher) are back off home tonight/tomorrow. Looking forward to the next round of boot camps.
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