Day Thirty Five: Up and Up

Emotionally feeling much better today, in fact, I feel well rested and engaged. I know my body's messing with me because I only got about five hours sleep last night so I have no right to feel so on top of things, but I can't complain.

Right back into it

Right. Nothing particularly exciting happened today. Wednesdays are my least favourite day of the week as they are unstructured and I have no set activities (I'm trying, every other Wednesday is Bitchin' Bingo...) and as a result I was generally unconstructive. Clocking Dune 2 with the Ordos isn't really an achievement.

Fitness: I was a lazy schmuck today. I considered venturing to the park but I became demotivated by the rain.

Aikdio: Day off today. I managed a half-awake daze for a couple of hours considering my body work though (contemplation of balance, connections, structure). It was extremely weird but possibly the closest to meditation I'll ever get. I've also forgotten most of it because I can't lay down memories when I'm half-awake (all those conversations I have before 10am? I never remember them)

Derby: No skating today. Basically I sat at my desk watching it rain outside thinking, "What am I supposed to do on days like today? Can't skate and offskates training would result in me getting cold and damp." It was around 1pm when it occurred to me I should probably do some work (joking for my work colleagues, I was actually surprised how much I attended to today).

Diet: I'm not sure why but breakfast fell apart and I had a selection of biscuits, a cupcake (thanks Gen-I), some cake (thanks Leoni) and several cups of tea. A poorly booked meeting pushed my lunch back till 2.30pm when I fixed myself a mammoth sandwich, then when I came home I had some garlic pitas, steak and a carrot for dinner. A pretty bloody poor attempt at trying to eat a reasonable amount let alone attempting to eat a well rounded diet. At least I nicked a lot of bananas from the breakroom so breakfast tomorrow shouldn't be an issue.

Sleep: I was a box of birds until I got home, when faced with the copious amounts of free time ahead this evening and the severe and constant mess my room is in I caved and had a semi-nap instead for 90 minutes (it was either that or tidy up). I didn't really sleep at all as I consciously directed my thoughts through motions, but it's probably as close to sleeping without sleeping as it gets. After the workshop I can see the benefit in contemplation and meditation - I think I may be able to do the contemplation but I have huge doubts about meditation. Aside from my mind noise I get a lot of constant feedback from my body as well so that's two things I'd need to silence effectively - it's hard getting 'out' of the clamour.


Plus because of my semi-nap it's now 1.30am - gonna hit the hay now and attempt to be more responsible tomorrow. I need to remember to plan my free evenings otherwise I let the lack of structure throw me off my game. Over all, a six out of a possible ten kind of day.