Today has been a lot of... I dunnos. I couldn't do a lot of things that I wanted to, because I had to do things I 'should' do, and as much as I've wanted to retreat into being an obnoxious, self serving pillock I get the feeling that won't help me much in the long run. It's just the timing.
Doesn't stop me feeling like I just got punched in the chest with a pole driver (and that hurts)
Fitness: Ab-so-lute-ly nothing again. And you know what? I don't even care right now.
Aikido: Beginners session. Was really good, Sensei Alicia pointed out so things for me particularly that she wants me to focus on. Still bothers me that when I watch the black belts, I can see the 'strings' - I can see how the mechanics of the technique effect the change they want. Making the connection is a lot harder when it's me, but at least I know what I'm looking for.
Derby: No skating today. And it cracked my teeth, I can assure you.
Diet: Weetbix and banana for breakfast. Lots of tea and biscuits for snacks (it may have only ever been me eating the chocolate biscuits out of the break room) and a rice bowl for lunch. I forgot to pre-load for Aikido (not that it mattered) and then Japanese for dinner. Then I had some more tea and biscuits.
Sleep: I'm tired. I don't think it's from the sleep or lack thereof, I think it's about middling so I really should be fine, I think it's still just the stress.
And that's it. I'm actually in an excessively bad mood (in case that wasn't obvious from the punchy, no nonsense post) and really, aside from wanting to hit several people I think it's probably best if I just go to sleep now.
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