Thursday, February 16, 2012

Day Thirty Six: Am I Slipping?

I can justify it if I choose - nine days straight in the dojo, why shouldn't I be easing back into things? Maybe just go a bit easy on the goals for a few days? Unfortunately I see right through my excuse, and don't believe myself for a second. I've been lazy, and I know it. Whether I've been in a workshop or a holiday or at work doesn't make any difference - today is today. I'm emotionally sound (as I can be), I'm not physically incapacitated (not much, the tendon along the top of my left foot is tighter than emo pants. But everything else seems to be working) so why shouldn't I hit all my targets?

The blog really does help. It's really obvious when I'm slacking off, and believe me, it's tempting to lie some days to try and mitigate how little I achieved.


Add some onion and garlic, done.


Example: You don't need to know I sat at my desk and ate biscuits all morning, I could say I tracked down my own prey and cooked that instead (and although unlikely, there's no empirical evidence either way). But there's no point. This is my reality and if I write a fantasy down, it achieves nothing and I may as well make up something more interesting. 




So every day I recount events as they happened, some days make me feel proud, and others, not so much. Time to fill myself with some pride and self worth by really making a go of today.



Fitness: Who knows what the people at the train station thought but I went through some steps making sure my knees follow my feet when I bend / squat / walk. I need to take care of my knees a bit more than I have been so ensuring they don't flex incorrectly and stress themselves during movement is vital. I had a lot of personal tasks to complete at lunch so I couldn't fit in any other exercise than my Aikido and skating. Still managed to do some lateral jumps along the pedestrian walkways downtown. Screw you cars, I have the right of way, and I'll jump around like an idiot if I feel the need.

Aikido: Just the beginners class on Thursdays. It's a good opportunity to go through the techniques a little slowly, and a bit more concise, both for myself and the newbies. It's a compromise though, I'm not high enough to have the control I need to do the technique how I want to and not throw an unsuspecting new person into the floor. So I hold back a little so as not to break them before they've learnt to roll safely, but anyway. Mat time is still mat time. It lets me know what I need to work on.

Derby: Yay! Skating! It always feels longer between skates than it ever actually is. Also, gasp, new wheels have arrived. At first, I debated if I wanted to try them out at training. I decided to wait for public skate and find my feet in my own time. I get to training late on Thursdays so I didn't want to be fluffing around (or falling repeatedly) in the shorter time I have to practice. Admittedly I was not feeling it tonight... and honestly, I wasn't feeling it on Tuesday. There seems to be something funky going on with my feet. Hopefully they get out of their funk for tomorrow.

Diet: Breakfast success! Biscuits, weetbix with banana and some tea. Mammoth sandwich, snacked on blueberries, cheese and crackers during the making of said sandwich. Chocolate milk and then blueberries and corn for dinner (not together, but that's what I ate after getting home). So dinner was a bit light but I didn't have any meat good to go - will remember to grab something out of the freezer tomorrow morning.

Sleep: Started off poorly by continuing my short sleep cycle last night but it's 11.30pm now, and it's totally bed time. No Dune 2, no more cat memes, no more... whatever. Bring on six and a half hours of nap time.


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